Wednesday, September 30
at 2:38 PM
that's what I texted to a couple of the people on my hand today. I came up with this genius idea (ok that may be a stretch but it worked for me anyway) of writing on my hand people Iwanted to pray for throughout the day. Everytime I looked at my hand I would pray for them individually or just pray for those "on my hand." It was very effective for me. I had no idea how much I actualy looked at my hand or how much everyone else did. I got lots of questions about why in the world I have names on my hand and I jus said it's people I'm praying for. So, anyways just thought I'd share what works for me.
at 10:06 AM
Tuesday, September 29
This is exactly what I keep experiencing with God. . . paradigm shifts. To rewrite Kuhn (who I am nearly certain was not talking about God). . .
"Advancement closer to God is a series of peaceful interludes punctuated by violent spiritual revolutions."
I am sure there is more that I will add to this but it's pretty much good for now.
I write this in the middle of some pretty heavy things on my heart. My wife is due any day now with our third child. (yes I DO count the baby we lost, he is ours even though we will never get to hold him) This event is the cause of much joy and anxiety too for sure.
Then today I found out that my Pop, who has been mysteriously sick for a little while now, has brain cancer and they will have to operate next Wednesday to remove two of the several masses they have found. I found myself questioning God's purposes. At the bottom of my question is really simply questioning God's love for me and my family. I know that is not very Yoda-like but it's the truth. Then I had a close friend (Vince Antonucci) tell me I am being very dumb and I think he called me an idiot too, but that is beside the point. It was not the nicest thing anyone has ever "encouraged" me with (I actually almost texted him back "thanks you jerk") but it is what I needed to hear. Vince also told me I follow a good Father who wants good things for me.
God kind of nudged me and showed me I still sometimes see him as a cosmic tooth fairy. You know, if I leave the tooth under my pillow I will get money or in God's case, if I try and do good and follow him bad things will not happen to me. Unfortunately this just is not truth. God is good and losing our baby was bad. Does that make God bad? no. God is good and cancer is bad. Does that make God bad? No. See, I know all the theological answers to the problem of suffering. Like, we live in a world that has been distorted from God's original plan because humans choose to not follow him therefore "bad" things happen. However, knowing this in my head and believing it in my heart is something entirely different.
It's times like these that God takes these truth statements in my head and connects them to what I believe in my heart that I have these paradigm shifts concerning God. Bad things do happen. People kill for no reason, innocence girls are raped, wars are fought where good people die, "religions" use God to extort money, people lose babies and grandads get cancer. It sucks, all of it and no it's not fair. BUT that does not change who God is. I have found in the midst of the most extreme pain in my life God is there comforting me. I can't really explain it but I know it was him.
at 8:33 PM
Saturday, September 26
This post was previously done from my phone but it did not post. So I did it manually. Then of course it posted and I deleted the wrong one. So here is the original.
at 8:43 PM
Thursday, September 24
at 12:50 PM
Tuesday, September 22
Thanks Dr. Lyons.
at 12:55 PM
Monday, September 21
Thursday, September 17
Test taken: Thursday, 17th September 2009
At time of test you are 28 years, 1 months and 14 days old
Thursday, 9th March 2056
Based on our calculations you will die on:
You will live to be 74 years, 7 months and 6 days old!Well that's good to know, guess I need to start getting some stuff accomplished. LOL
at 8:57 AM
Tuesday, September 15
Thanks again Dave for some mind blowing artwork. I just wish I could put this on the wall in a frame (but that would hurt a bit I think).
And thanks Krystal for allowing me to do it. I know you don't like tattoos very much but thanks for letting me be me and not trying to change me. I love you! You're the greatest!
This is what I originally gave Dave to work with. It is a great line drawing done by a local artist (Joey Nobody at Ocean Mystique. Who could not do the piece due to an accident).
You can look below at some of my first session pics and see who much Dave transformed it.
at 9:07 PM
Sunday, September 13
Friday, September 11
at 8:12 AM