ok ok ok ok. I know that I said I would be posting more this month and now its near the end and I realize it's been not so much.
Anyhow. That's the best my
apologies get, sorry (that's the second best.)
I have been spending the last few and next few days in Austin,
Tx at a church planting conference by E.L.I. (
http://www.elichurchplanting.com/) called the Gathering.
Now let's be clear "The Gathering" is a scary name. I think of either a cult gathering where John tries to get us to drink the "
kool aid" or a
sequel to the horror movie "The Ring." But let me assure you it's not. Well at least not exactly anyhow (they did offer coffee instead of
kool aid.)
Vince
Antonucci (
http://www.vinceantonucci.com/) is the guy I am going to intern with at Verve (
http://www.vivalaverve.org/) in
Las Vegas. (man there are a lot of links in this post, whatever go check them out!) He is speaking here this week. His first
dealio was this morning and it was really good, what I heard anyway. Let me explain. He told a story and started talking about how God sees people who are far from Him and His heart for them. I tried to stay in there and listen (because he was doing really good) but I had to leave.
I barely got into the bathroom and found a stall (that
wasn't gross) before I completely lost it. I sat on the toilet (with my pants on just in case you were wondering... I know my wife will tell me to delete that sentence
lol) and just wept. Actually to say wept falls short. I bawled my eyes out. Like drooling and snot streams and all. It was pretty yucky.
I have been praying for about a year for Jesus to give me His heart for people far from Him and see them as He sees them. In fact I pray this with my son, Brodie, every night I tuck him in for bed. And Jesus has certainly been faithful and I keep
getting small glimpses from Him and I felt I was getting a hold on it. Until today.
Most of you know that on November 4
th 2008 my wife and I
received the horrible news that we lost the baby my wife was pregnant with at the time (17 weeks). Of course that was the most painful thing we have ever faced. However, my wife and I have found that God has been using our pain to relate to others who are hurting. Today God tore that scab off again and gave me a clear picture of His heart for those far from Him. He impressed on my heart that the pain I felt of losing our child is a small glimpse of the pain He feels
every time a unbeliever dies and is
separated forever from Him.
This was nearly more than I could handle. I sobbed for ten minutes straight sitting in a bathroom for those with out Christ and thanking God for bringing a clearer reason for the pain I have felt and seeing His heart. I renewed my commitment to Him to go wherever, do whatever to reach whoever. Guess this is why it makes sense to me to move to the other side of the nation to reach people for Christ.
Thanks God and thanks Vince (but I still hate that you keep making me cry.)